It is a whole package both me and you.

thoughts

2010-11-07T22:25:00.001+08:00

Hihi!

2010-08-30T09:30:00.003+08:00

haha, why the tittle is hihi?

because its about my dearest, and this is his fav start for our conversation. so yea.

it has been quite some time since my last post. no doubt that i have neglected this area where i can express my thoughts. something that i used to rely on heavily in my seconday sch times. but i guess, with things improving i dun see the need to pour out my heart.

i've actually just read through some post from my older blogs(ps. i nvr deleted any of them but all just for keepsake, for me to read from time to time to see how i was back den)

anyway, back to the purpose of this post.

dearest...

what i told u yesterday was what i really meant. and it still stands the same for nw, forever.

nothing in this world can replace anything that we have. Its something very special. something that we have both worked very hard for. and to give it away just like that, well... its just beyond me, and hopefully the same for u. i've been through hell to get to enjoy what we have today... and it has never been easy to maintain a relationship and which is why we do get upset w each other once in awhile. and sometimes when things get forgotten, because we just got too comfortable w each other that we think that certain things just dun matter that much. however, that tiny-est thing have proven to be something impt too.

u dont have to worry that someday i will be gone to that 'better' someone, because that someone is you. u think that i dunno that the things u do for me is something easy? but i do know its hard. why? simply for the fact that im bad tempered, maybe even short tempered. sometimes unreasonable to a small extend and such. to put it in as little words as possible, its just that im not someone who is easy to get along w for the long term duration.

u may be flawed, but im nowhere any better. and w that, we make a wholesome someone together =)

So much of uncertainty....

2010-05-23T18:51:00.003+08:00

suddenly i feel a strong rush of uncertainty....

i wonder if we can make it through the test of time....

i nvr wanted/ needed so much of assurance until i met u.

dun wan to lose u yet there wasnt anything i can do to make sure things will fall out the way it should, or at least the way i want it to be.

living in another 5 years of uncertainty is really fearful.

how i wish there's something that can be done to solve/remove this fear.

Feeling: Depressed,Confused,Wishes-to-know-what-happens-next,Wants-to-know-if-you-will-always-be-there

=(((((((((((

what i want.....

2010-05-15T09:21:00.003+08:00

what love is....

2010-04-17T10:41:00.000+08:00

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy.
Love is never boastful, nor conceited, nor rude;
It is not self-seeking, nor easily angered.
It keeps no record of wrongdoing.
It does not delight in evil,
But rejoices in the truth.
It always protects, trusts, hopes, and preserves.
There is nothing love cannot face;
There is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance.
In a word, there are three things that last forever:
Faith, hope, and love;
But the greatest of them all is love.

-- 1 Corinthians 13:4-7

you.

2009-12-13T16:47:00.001+08:00

honestly, i dunno what's right anymore....

i hope things goes well...

Life is just so hard to figure out.

2009-12-11T21:46:00.005+08:00

and in the mist of this, we just give up like that.

anyways, today i went to buy some chopstick-look-alike thingy. and guess what! it just gave itself away. so i had to trying doing my hair with a real chopstick and it works wonders!

shall show u guys some and my nail art of my own!

shall start with the nails first den the hair-do alright.

ok enough of side shots, this is the front shot and i dun think it's as nice as the side shots =/

alright till next time, hj wants to have a peek at it ahaha

Life is fragile.

2009-12-03T18:07:00.001+08:00

What am i most terrified of?

Someone or something close to me dying or leaving me. For some reason, i have not emotional control when things like that happen. It happened once before my very eyes and it's bad enough. Seeing my bro and i's beloved rabbit to die in our arms at a very tender age is very much tramatic. Thank god i dun have to witness my grandfather or grandmother's death. Even till now, they are being remembered dearly. They all felt as those they were with me just yesterday.And for the most recent death, it was tt of my hamster, who perhaps died of some eye tumour.

And what triggered this post was that someone close to me is now put in this situation but i on the other hand feels frighten for him. How many more times do i need to deal with them? I'm nt that strong. And for now, i cannot imagine the day whereby my dog were to leave me. I have no idea how upset i would be and he has passed half of his lifespend, just how long does he have left? Would i be there to watch him in pain and suffering? Will i then be financially stable to provide him with the best.

I really dont know........

Life is fragile. Why do we have to be in situations like this....

And as for me, I've nvr been good at dealing with death... Nvr have been....

So how many more death do i have to see/ go through.

Up till now, every single one still feels as raw, thinking abt it just brings rain onto my face. and for that i really hate myself, i cannot understand why am i so lousy at this. why can't i be stronger. sigh....

who can really keep up to that all the time....

2009-09-21T12:10:00.000+08:00

BF's SHOULD DO.

☆~ When she stares at your mouth = "Kiss her"
☆~ When she pushes you or hits you like a dumb ass cuz she thinks shes stronger than you = "LET HER BEAT AND ACT PAINFUL"
☆~ When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tuff = "Kiss her and tell her you love her"
☆~ When she's quiet = "Ask her what's wrong"
☆~ When she ignores you = "Give her your attention"
☆~ When you see her at her worst = "Tell her she's beautiful"
☆~ When you see her start crying = "Just hold her and don't say a word"
☆~ When she steals your favorite pillow = "Let her keep it and slp with it for a night"
☆~ When she doesn't answer for a long time = "Reassure her that everything is okay"
☆~ When she looks at you with doubt = "Back yourself up"
☆~ When she says that she likes you = "SHE REALLY DOES MORE THAN U COULD UNDERSTAND!"
☆~ When she looks at you in your eyes = "Don't look away until she does"
☆~ When she says it's over = "She still wants you to be hers"
☆~ When she reposts this = "She wants you to read it"
☆~ Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything
☆~ Call her at 12:00am on her birthday/anniversary dates to tell her you love her

☆~ Treat her like she's all that matters to you
☆~ Stay up all night with her when she's sick
☆~ Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid

2009-09-17T21:41:00.003+08:00

it's seriously cold right now... just taken my very cold bath...

happy bday to HUIJING... now let me see if i can get a photo of her...

ok... this would do...

i guess all the people who has 'jing' in their name likes to smell their hair. LOL

ok... shall update more abt today's celebration when i get the pictures.

anyways... last thing to touch on this. ONG A! GET WELL SOON. poor thing lo..

RMB CALL ME FOR SHOPPING TRIP KK!! ^^

anyways... i just realise something dumb that i did on tuesday... it's SERIOUSLY dumb... -.-

cux now im working a 9-5 job. or rather 830 - 545. den i have to rush down to orchard from tanjong pagar. and being the silly me.. i worked things out... forgetting that there is a red line 2 stops away. so i went to outram rush to purple line. den to dhouby ghout rush to the red line. JUST TO GET TO ORCHARD -.- i would have saved alot of time is i just went to cityhall or raffles place to orchard la. maybe i dun have to rush like mad. and orchard closed one of the pedestrian crossing, might have more lor. i dunno... all in all... i rushed for nth. !!! WTH!!! *PULLS HAIR*

alright... till next time... TATA!

14 Sep 2009

2009-09-14T21:41:00.003+08:00

this very day marks our third year aniversary... and dear just went home.

we meet after im done with work. went to some where near my place for dinner. we had zi char. 3 dishes, consisting of peper crab, hotplate tofu and lastly sweet and sour pork.... costing about 50plus. i think this was much better den going for hanabi... but just for having the experience sake i guess. walked home, talked along the way.. suddenly dear asked if i liked flowers or rather if it has any significant meaning to me. i said not really but that would be nice. oh yea, i also said nasty things abt him, why third year present or anything also dun have.

ya der ya der.

dear asked me to bath dunno why

went to bath. and suddenly i found something that i wanted.

Still have no idea what this is...

just look down...

Full brush set...

i mentioned that i would like to have this as my 3 year anni's present and looks like i got it ;) got rather emotional, cux i didnt really get him anything. just some other things, intangible but i guess should have it's meaning? and also i felt horrible cux i told him he always dun wan to get things for me... looks like i just slapped myself in the face lor.

watched some jacky chan show on tv. tt's why dear stay on longer.

hmmm, must get something for dear cux of his cough and all. must learn to pay more attention to his needs as well... i forgotten all abt it and ordered all the heaty stuffs. not only that... still say i wan them spicy... felt guilty after that....

oh well, it has been a very happy three years. the saddening part all's gone. fresh start- all the bad part's gone. my dear's a sweety ^^

Love dear.

Cheerios to the many good years to come ^^

exams~~~~

2009-08-20T19:52:00.003+08:00

exams being just tml just adds on to the stress level. and as usual, I'm only panicking now.... -.- yea, i know very typical of me.

anyways, gonna head back to studying at 8 and i hope i dun screw up tml. so i can get a nice A. cux i believe that would be my one and only one =/

i dun wish to take a sup paper too. looks kind of ugly =/

anyways, had a couple of unproductive studying days and let me do a little picture thingy to sum up some of the stuffs i've been doing... i made cookies and have yet to upload the pictures... so next time i shall put it up =)

some days back back i guess...

dear looking good. and for ur info... this was not done by him. but me ok! i guess i have some touch for hair eh. HEHE!

The back view, didnt have much wax left so pretty much undone.

i quite like the side view ^^

this one not as nice lehs... like dao ming si's hair which i dun like LOL

must be just the angle!

so overall im please with myself ^^

i didnt wreck his hair, unlike what he did to my eyes~~~ anyways, that aside if not i would have to gone on for a good 1.5 hours. LOL

so yea, he's hair would be done by me again on our 3rd year anniversary =)

TILL NEXT TIME! TATA!

(P.S. i still don't like the fact that u deleted that video =( )

a reason, a season or a lifetime- so where do u belong to?

2009-08-13T10:06:00.004+08:00

i read this very interesting article, and it made me feel who has been in my life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. many times i blame for those who comes into my life for just a reason. but now i dun blame them. for this is the reason why it happens...

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.

When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that
person..

When someone is in your life for a REASON,

it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.

They have come to assist you through a difficulty,

to provide you with guidance and support,

To aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.

They may seem like a godsend and they are.

They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,

this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.

Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.

Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.

What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire
fulfilled, their work is done.

The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has
come to share, grow or learn.

They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.

They may teach you something you have never done.

They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.

Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,

things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional
foundation.

Your job is to accept the lesson,

love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other
relationships and areas of your life.

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

hence, i would like to thank those people for being part of my life, whether they were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

i hope i have shared something meaningful, and that u people would like it =)

This boy here is awesome!

2009-08-12T21:38:00.002+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zHLzFcIxKYY&feature=related

go take a look. really awesome stuff!

horray! there's not school tml xD. and thankfully the following week! thank goodness, 1.1 will soon be over! looking forward 1.2 =)

changes...

2009-08-10T22:19:00.002+08:00

sometimes, if someone changes to suit the situation better, they feel pretty ugly.

anyways, that aside... I MADE COOKIES... yum yum! hehe, premixed though, in two colours. LOL oh well, they are just as tasty though ^^

sch kicks in tml, i just wished it wasnt presentation that starts it off =(

2009-08-05T21:54:00.002+08:00

laptop has been down for quite some time now. still not ready though. now rushing wds. problem after problems. DAMMIT -.-

still not over with my busy week. Fri to hand wds up, sat to have summative test, Mon com sk presentation, wds presentation on Tues. OMG! sleep have nvr been enough these few days.

lethargic!

Life...

2009-07-27T21:48:00.001+08:00

fatigue.

don't push me off the limits. it wouldn't be nice if everything turns sour.

DRAW THAT LINE.

a fruitful day~

2009-07-21T23:38:00.003+08:00

today wasnt really happy, neither was i sad. just another monotonous day... BUT something made my day!

so... what exactly made my day...

Well, this is it!

My formal shoes =D

this is how it looks like when worn..

and another shot of the shoes...

damm nice right. or at least i loved it. something that i wanted to get.. just the height and texture. even the colour ^^ this made my day since it has been quite some time since i last went shopping. and what's more to buy shoes~! for some reason i quite like buying shoes. bought quite a few heels during the time i was working and now i cant wear them to sch for they are too formal or too high. just doesnt fit lah. but wanjing and i and probably shiyan will be wearing heels on thurs. i hope nth goes wrong. hmmm. this explains me being happy.

and talking abt it, reminded me about today's downfall!

i woke up at 1030. rushed down to tamp at 12. and lessons starts at 12. so i dun wish to be marked absent. i took a cab down. but the time i enter the classroom was 1220. i was like~~~~ wth... take cab... rush down... trip on the stairs... ended up being that late i might as well dun go for lesson.... enter the classroom, breathing heavily. in a way lack of oxygen... wtheck la... totally!

alright.. going off already so... GOOD NIGHT!

after many weeks

2009-07-14T21:40:00.003+08:00

here is finally an update after weeks... seriously dun feel like blogging and i guess no one really reads this any way...

in any case, the reason I'm here is due to my dearest... i swear not one in my life time can be as nice and sweet that he is. seriously, giving in to me a lot. I'm a female but yet having a really strong pride, don't know why either. so no matter what he has to give in in the end. tell, just now many times can one give in to one. so i really believe its the power of love. i dunno why, but somehow it's programmed into me. as much as i wish to speak, i just couldn't. resulting in hurt along the way. but he's always there to bring things up. seriously, there's no one guy i would trade him for. and having said this makes me more paranoid, of losing him. he just means too much to me. maybe not. he is already a part of me. i just wish to see him every single day. make sure he's well and all. though sometimes i say really mean things(sometimes, u do that too yourself). but no matter what i said, in the end, i still love u. and dun mean all the mean things i said.

today marks the 34months of being together. i guess we both seen a lot. from each other that is. dun really act like the budding freshness of love. but it still has it's uniqueness matured love i can say? something along that line i suppose. though i really thought pretty far. but possible, quite likely =) and dear is changing for the better. at least now he gives me my goodbye kisses b4 i go off which really is nth. not like we are kissing in public or what. just a peck. so it's nth to be too concerned about.

bottom line, he's my sweetest. my sweetest escape after a long and tiring day.

Love has nvr been any better.

well, at least im here again...

2009-06-27T22:15:00.002+08:00

sometimes the world make me feel so small. depressing? mostly likely... even someone dear feels just like that.

feeling ever so dispensable....

wishing for the day to become indispensable.....

short update...

2009-06-10T16:22:00.008+08:00

beautiful women may make men swoon over them

and other women tremble....

but true love always keeps the faith together.

darling...

i believe in the faith we built.

Verdict.

2009-05-27T22:51:00.002+08:00

have been really busy with sch hence no updates. next week is mid sem test. stressed.

short rant abt THE PLACE WHERE I LIVE...

once again, the tcher is fucked up, i might just go down one of these days to the Principal. this tcher has the guts to say such a thing to my brother....

he merely told her that he would be going on a holiday this school holiday. and who would have thought that a CERTIFIED MOE TEACHER ACTUALLY SAID, as quoted from my brother, "Go,Go,Go,Go to hell la!" what has the world turned into. tarnishing the image,reputation of the role of a Teacher.

next, today i went for a haircut. and this hair dresser with a stuck up attitude, totally pissed me off.

if there's a tv there, wouldnt u watch it naturally? so i watched the tv, and he got irritated by it. he thought i wouldnt appreciate what he is doing to my hair. or whatever he was thinking. so after he was done with everything, he told me to look in mayb a not v nice way, i dun really recall that. as i was looking at my hair, this stuck up person said, since u are not interested den forget it. like totally wtf la. if u are pissed from the start den take the bloody tv away! and that stuck up attitude just sucks.

den following that we went to some coffee shop within distance from our place, this durian stall have two workers but it seems like they cant be bothered with earning more money... we were standing right there, 5 ppl so surely they could see us, but they acted like we werent there and concentrated on just one customer. so its shit. den we went to the bubble tea shop. she didnt look like she was going to close, so we went there, look at the drink board. and when we were abt to make our order. she offed the lights, and later said they are not selling anymore. PISSED. could she like tell us earlier they are closing so we didnt have to waste our time queuing up.

to sum things up, they are not human, maybe animals,aliens, monster, or mayb they are so uncivilised, probably stone age would have the closest match with them la.

with my utmost and strongest believe, i have placed a verdict on this place as the WORST place to ever live in. THIS PLACE SUCKS TO THE MAX.

-DONE-

after a long long time....

2009-05-19T10:12:00.002+08:00

haven been updating since the last post...
so many things happened... lazy to make any updates from den. so i'll start with today and hopefully able to keep up.

today, wds choy didnt come. so i have been fbing, doing tutorial, and of cux, blogging..
ending sch today at 2. meeting him. ya da ya da. gone home.

might post pictures of my poly friends soon. i suppose.( CLAP.....CLAP!CLAP! OWWW!*JUMP*)
to benefit my friends from my former school =)

2009-05-10T14:48:00.002+08:00

what does an apology mean in this mordern day. to me, it has lost it value seriously... every single thing, ppl think that with this word 'sorry' everything could be forgotten and forgiven.

anyway, im getting bored of my look... want to have a change.. maybe soon. at Tamp1, for the hair cut/blow/wash tt yasmean told me. considering... sian sian sian.

so many things left undone and so many things left unsaid.

gonna start doing them, and for the saying part.... let's just let it snowball for now....

till next time....

last day of u absence...

2009-05-03T19:46:00.002+08:00

been bumming ard the entire day...

but i did manage to complete 3/5 hmks... so hooray for me...

yada yada....

hmm wonder if i get to see u tml, or the day after... dunno..

oh well... too lazy to post so this is what u have.

nth to post rather... so if u try to post something out of nth... this is wat u get...

and yea, yasMEAN is both cool and mean~!

second day of his absence....

2009-05-02T19:10:00.003+08:00

despite sleeping pretty late this few days i have been waking up just as early...

and into the day i would be feeling really tired. but when night comes again i cant sleep till a later time...

did nth much today... followed mum to stock up... but it seems to be to stock up ice cream... -.-

anyways, nt a bad idea... i would be eating it too.

swine flu or rather influenza A hit asia already and i hope it doesnt come anywhere near sg or msia.

omnia is crappy... phone keeps heating up. but i think/suppose its alright now.

having plans on getting another one... or mayb just service it...

and dear cant be contacted now... and i wonder why.... hopefully all's well....

alright... shall put up two pictures den if not this post looks pretty dead...

one of my first few classmates, first one to have a picture taken with..

*how have u been?*

this has been the question from me to u the entire day.

and to make matters worse....

u are not picking up ur phone nor replying to my sms... so how have u been...

are u safe?

i hope for the best den...

well, that's pretty much all for today...

nights people....

first day of his absence...

2009-05-01T23:33:00.002+08:00

hello ppl....

today marks the first day of his absence...

really is worring me this pandemic is getting worse and closer to us.

i hope all goes well and swine aka swear flu(for some) stay away from us.

i wish for him to come back safe and sound...

ok... today will be a short post... super tired after a day at the pool....

so im going off to bed that is. will be back tml for more detailed post i suppose...

nights...

imy...

hello...

2009-04-30T21:54:00.002+08:00

second week has passed. this week being the short week cux of the long weekend cux of labour day.

im sort of torn in between. and i feel like a total bitch -.-

sch loads of hmk and projects. nt started.

well, when i was on my way back i got a call from pacesetters that im being shortlisted for interview this coming tuesday.. nervous... i've nvr been to any interview and this one requires us to be in formal...

anyways... today had alot of fun with yasmean,siewmin and theresa. talked alot laughed alot..

mood pretty bad... due to certain reasons but doubt anyone noticed. but i was happier when i was talking with them and such. and got home pissed. but what can i do abt that...

well...

till next time...

week one has passed and tml's week 2...

2009-04-26T18:56:00.003+08:00

well, been sometime again since i last posted so well... i shall touch on three issues or topics or subjects. (whichever u prefer)

firstly, week 1 and secondly, i bet most of u have heard abt, the massive solar storm which is estimated to occur in 2012. thridly which ccas i have in mind haha.

so first off, WEEK 1!

hmm, rather slack in certain sense, cux of the breaks. web design was the most interesting. and macroecons being the sianest. i actually fished a couple of times during lecture... how to endure further~~~ hmm classmates as days goes by, we got closer? and further in other sense? LOL

ANYWAYS, week 1 passed as quickly as it came. and i pretty much enjoyed it? since i get to be myself after awhile. and some were shocked by my hyperness. did they really think i was those v quiet un-hyped person. hahas... well... looks can be deceiving alright... well, i didnt like the fact that reality was shoved up our faces, with all the examinations and test, and how is it to procceed... argh~! in anycase, i will welcome week 2 with open arms and prepare to be more stress, but i guess next sem would be alot worse... and yea our class had alot of meetings/gatherings.

the massive solar storm, why am i so bothereD?

well, simply for the fact that they mention tt half the human race is gonna die, and what are the odds to me being the unfortunate one... HIGH!

so i feel really sad, cux i would die in regret.

2012... i just graduated from polythenic. no career no family no kids grandchildren.

well, im more of a family orientated person anyways...

so yeap, im not happy leaving this earth with so many regrets or at least having to face that i might, most likely, face tt fate... oh well..... i wish for the best den...

ok, lastly, i've decided to sign up for PACEsetters, and volleyball. shall contact them soon since i missed the cca recruitment drive. haha. =)

alright, abt time to rush my hmk b4 i start changing my blogskin, soon... hahas within this week...

oh to update u with whether or not i look haggard after a week of school, i shall load a picture!~ of me~!

and next a picture taken pretty long ago with dear, i think it's lovely and cute... so up it goes ^^

so tata ppl~!

be back to check out the new layout/post whichever comes first... hahas~!

ENJOY SECOND WEEK OF SCHOOL PEOPLE~!!!!

TP WEEK 0 ORENTATION

2009-04-18T12:08:00.002+08:00

business 2k09 was the only cheer tt i like, and though sine sine cosine sine one was unique and make business stand out but abit hard to rmb lo~~~

and yeap, business took the champions again, according to the juniors/seniors/sl/gl ,whichever u call them, business has been on the lead for 4times making this the fifth ^^

and thanks to them putting us out in the sun, apparently only the business students get the sun but nvm...

day1 was pretty bad for me, no bother whom i really know so as usual, being my emo self~~~the day seems like months... was pretty grouchy, snap faster too. we did the usuals, mass dance, chicken dance, tp song. of what i've done in TPRAWKS. didnt cheer much on the first day, as i dun feel tt my class is really cheering and i dun wan to look like a fool. so im not hyped, and when tt happens, im pulling a long face. end of the day, made one friend...

day2 much better meet one of my classmate and we went in tgt, changed into the business T. stick some temp tattoos. they wan it on our faces, so i was like.... LONG TRIP HOME AFTER THAT U KNOW... do u wan me to look like a fool.... but well all in the name of fun, i did it. i was pretty much the same till probably after lunch. more hyped up, started talking to more ppl, randomly, and i guess my name is pretty much unforgettable, cux i got called twice which everyone else was only once or nvr called. and when i randomly asked my classmate what my name is she could tell me, and i guess i am having trouble with rmbring their names esp chinese ones... well, i sort of had fun in the end if not for the cramps~ and if not for it i would have gone for dragonboating la. and end of the day, i got tanned and i think my face, i think called the 'T' section got burnt, they kind of hurt when i rub my nose....

timetable pretty slack, but i start early =( at 9 which many others at 12. so monday i have this 4hours break which i dunno what to do abt it. and the most sickening thing is tt fri i only have to go to sch for an hour la~~~ this is so......

thank goodness its only for this week...

oh yea, i got back my matriculation card, didnt turn out half as bad as how i tot of it to be.

and lastly, im having bit orentation on thurs, and they said they are planning on water activities oh my.....

now im contemplating on what CCA to join...

lifesaving????

BSC?????

TPSU???

well, we'll see how it goes...

alright, my done with this... TATA~!

hello people~~!

2009-04-12T09:20:00.002+08:00

went to sentosa yesterday, though the weather was bad, and it was only hj and i. we, nonetheless, had loads of fun alright! we took the luge. ENDLESS FUN~! their slogan is once is nvr enough, however we felt even thrice is nvr enough~! haha! looking at the excitement i get even by typing this post, u can just about imagine the fun i have going there. initially i thought just two ppl going would be v sian but nope, i was wrong hahas. we only left sentosa at abt 810 if im not wrong hahas.

as for now, im waiting for dear hj to send me those pictures we took hahas ^^. oh, den we saw some tp-ians(if they even call themselves tt) and some ppl who look like certain people i know. yada yada, and im done posting HOHO!~

feelings: MIXED

WHY: school.....

the stupid things we do for love...

2009-04-08T00:46:00.005+08:00

what brought abt this topic would be when i was going home today from the minimart, i saw what ppl did to express their love, in a some what not so clever way. writing it from dust. i dun mean tt it's bad but just their way of expressing i guess.

this set me thinking... thinking back abt all the countless stupid actions i have done in the name of love. nothing too bad, nothing good as well...

dilemma dilemma dilemma....

some of those i have regretted doing, but to no returns.

being self-centred, probably a control freak.

but some on the other hand turned out good i suppose.

love is so profound, something beyound me i guess, ask me what love is...

i doubt i can ever answer anyone.

perhaps, this is the true meaning of love?

somehow i dun think there's a true definition of love.

ppl express them differently, connections differently.

if only this thing called love was that simple to understand....

alright, serious note aside.. let's talk abt guys.. the kind of guys tt irks me...

1) Full of Vulgarities

2) TERRIBLY BAD fashion sense... its terrible bad like jean and slippers for guys, totally not cool.

3)those yaya papayas... always so full of themselves, confidence is good, but not over confident. a little of everything is a good thing, not A LOT.

4)Ungentlemaness( i created it... so yea, u get my point )

5) those who can make decisions? (this is the least, cux sometimes, i have a part in decision-making time)

im not pin pointing anyone, just something general abt my dislike... =)

Shell of an angel i've found...

2009-03-25T11:55:00.008+08:00

Shell Of An Angel Lyrics

You look identical to someone i know
or am i just imagining that someone is you
cause you walk just the same but your attitude's changed
like someone's pretending they're you
yeah and you disappeared even though your still here
yeah thats the truth so

where did u go
look at you now
your just a shell of an angel i found
so here i stand outside your house
know that your home but the lights are all out
and i thought from heaven you came
but now everythings changed
in a moment you just shut me out
where did u go
look at you now
cuz ur jus the shell of an angel
shell of an angel i found

you look identical you sure get around
sometimes I call ur name even scream it out loud
but you act so different when your out with your friends
do they even know the real you
cuz the one that they see is a stranger to me
thats the truth so

where did u go
look at you now
your just a shell of an angel i found
so here i stand outside your house
know that your home but the lights are all out
and i thought from heaven you came
but now everythings changed
in a moment you just shut me out
where did u go
look at you now
cuz ur jus the shell of an angel
shell of an angel i found

but you act so different
when your out with your friends
do they even know the real you
cuz the one that they see
is a stranger to me
thats the truth so

-REMOVED-

but for now, the chapter continues...

once upon a time....

2009-03-24T23:05:00.003+08:00

i guess that's what happens, or so i think and believe.

there's so much in life that has happened in this short time frame of 17 years, so much that i have lost, but no regrets. or so i think. though there are times whereby i start reminiscing about old times. but nonetheless, I'm thankful for all that has happened, and I'm fine with these wonderful memories... like the time whereby i hang out late with my friends, having talks, etc etc. so much has changed, no idea why. nothing seems to bring back those memories. therefore, I'm really glad that i have these wonderful memories. etched in my mind, bringing bolts of happiness within me. some of them which really brings smile on my face. in the short time frame of maybe 6 months? ha ha. though i miss a lot of what that has happened, I'm v sure that i wouldn't have them back, but just the memories... giving me this nostalgic feeling. but i have to embrace the fact that things wouldn't be the same anymore, and that at least, i have these wonderful memories for ALL good things comes to an end eventually.....

alrights..... emo-ness aside... now for some pictures that has been taken during another long absence of me...

ok fine, just too lazy and the sudden lost in interest... if u really have the heart/curious... go to Facebook... it's all there...

another lost of interest in blogging.just too bored... boring whichever...

have been watching bbf. now waiting for epi 23. heard its coming to the end, but jihoo is mine ^^(dear too)

CURRENT MOOD: MOODY!

after a VERY long time

2009-03-17T23:09:00.003+08:00

hello, im here to blog a picture of my picture taken with the web cam=)

with the request from miss ONG. HAHA

this is for u can...

must appreciate. *BIG SMILES*(FOR ME)

okok, i decided to make this a more complete post since ms ong says this is not acceptable. im now @ office, with FINALLY NTH to do. so i shall do a SUPER brief summary of what has happened, and that is about to happen.

had my bday celebration with pri sch classmates, went out with xinyu 2 times, went out with ms ong 2-3 times. meeting ms ong on fri day night, meeting pri sch fren on fri noon. sat going out with yt tc and ms ong and xinxin to sentosa! long awaited, wanted to go with u-know-who a LONG time ago....

and yes, i've thought a name for my laptop, no it would be booboo,soso,susu, Mr. Lifebook IT SHALL BE. hohohoho. this laptop has this prestigious feel to it can. lol, or least that's how i think of it to be. ^^ so ms ong and ms wang, no more fighting ^^

a quickie

2009-02-27T22:29:00.003+08:00

hmmm, i had loads of fun on my birthday and thanks to all the people, lovable people who made all that possible, more updates on tt during the weekends...

my mum just called me on my hp to tell me abt unimpt stuffs when she is just in the room next mine.... how lazy can she be....

back for part two...

2009-02-17T22:33:00.008+08:00

im back!!!

why, for round two of course.

dearest and me.

me being all spastic

evidence of him leaving me alone, while he games....HOW CAN!

this is another of my dearest, BTW this pic was taken by my omnia, not bad eh, got style!

THIS ONE TOO!

a trip to sentosa with cousins.

random-ness

Cousins again

Group of Cousins

Miniature grp

still v mini

cousins, and i look terribly FAT, nvm, shows tt i got FU. haha

SPASTIC MAX-ED!

who u trying to kiss huh~~! Candid of my brother!

my 2years frenship ong ong. OHOHOHO, ONG A~ aka ONG ONG =D

SPASTIC. im always spastic arent i. BUT WHATEVER =D

WAIT WAIT... BESTFRIEND SINCE PRI SCHOOL COMING UP ^^ where's my picture with my tantan as well... *SEARCHING FOR TAN TAN AND I*

MEANWHILE....

all time favorite(10years frenship), not to forget rina and gladys(8years frenship) too la. just tt i dun have ur photos =/ my birthday tt day MUST take eh.. den i put up =D

next my tan tan aka lao PUR~~~ aka xin aka i dunno what else, i gave her alot of names =S

meeting up this sat so will post up a more recent shot with her with my other buddies =D

this would be taken when we are in sec 1 or 2 haha, 4 years frenship.

more to be updated after my birthday haha =D

Two things to touch on...

2009-02-17T22:05:00.002+08:00

First, what i already had in mind...

Second, I FOUND MY USB, so pictures up in a bit, gonna introduce some nice ppl to u HOHOHO. so i look like crap in some, please ignore =D everyone has their bad days, isnt it =D

Ok, to start the ball rolling....

FIRST UP!

the weather these days are pretty bad, so darlings do take care of urself. initially i thought it was sunny Singapore's HOT period, but after i heard the radio today, its because of forest fires in Australia. or i forgotten where. SUPER HOT and rather hazy... = SUPER sian.

OHOH. yesterday i read in the new paper, it said tt a 13 year old boy is a father, and the mother is some 15 to 16 year old girl, who slept with multiple guys. OMG! shocking can. ya da ya da abt tt, more informations go fish it own ur own LOL.

RING RING! DARLING!

ok, done with what i wanted to touch on. LOL not v elaborate as what i had in the morning ba.. can la, i still gt second half of the blog post. HAHA

in collaboration with Valentines Day =D

2009-02-16T21:57:00.001+08:00

Staring at the moon so blue
Turning all my thoughts to you
I was without hopes or dreams
I tried to dull an inner scream but you
saw me through

Walking on a path of air
See your faces everywhere
As you melt this heart of stone
you take my hand to guide me home and now
I'm in love

[Chorus:] You took my heart away
when my whole world was gray
You gave me everything
and a little bit more
And when it's cold at night
and you sleep by my side
you become the meaning of my life

Living in a world so cold
you are there to warm my soul
You came to mend a broken heart
You gave my life a brand new start and now
I'm in love

[Chorus:]
You took...

Holding your hand
I won't fear tomorrow
Here were we stand
we'll never be alone

Valentines...

2009-02-14T23:46:00.003+08:00

Well, i suppose friday the thirteen was really bad towards the end of it, and the early part of Valentines day.

went over to dear's. he gave me a gift, something tt i casually taken a liking to. and he got it for me =) thanks darling...

i slpt abit like for 30mins and darling woke me up. snacked abit, didnt have breakfast nor lunch lor. went tgt with his bro and his frens who i know some of. had steamboat. i am very full, and still is. and i still think guys are very petty =)

i suppose now it's 风平浪静. end of the dramatic episode and that it ends there.

ok ppl, really tired now. i slpt for less den 3.5hours for the past 13-14 feb. gotta rest now. TATA!

relieved...

2009-02-13T19:21:00.002+08:00

finally im back home without much mishaps...

this few days have been going to client's place for audit.

went to a client place in glenegles a yesterday, and strategy building today.

today was my first attempt to wear a 10cm high heels.

and i was tortured, i doubt i will wear it anytime soon, maybe for dinner or something...

though my job requires me to sit more, i still feel the strain. initially i cant walk properly, but towards to end of the day i got used to it already. but the train being crowded and all, had quite a hard time trying to balance. budden, it's all over. im home without the heels.

Monday back to those two places, cux we are not done.

and honestly, its not easy being auditors, it's really taxing. i cant imagine myself doing it for the rest of my life. not cut out for that i suppose. i like being carefree

i dun like stressing myself out too much.

tml's a day every girl looks forward to, feeling really excited and all. but nope... not me...

just another day for me.

so anyways, Happy Advance Valentines Day, people, enjoy....

mymy.... what a place to be in...

2009-02-11T19:46:00.004+08:00

this place would be labelled as hell...

it's not a nice place to be in and it's where all the uncouth lot of ppl lives... and hey, it's where i bloody live now... for those who knows good for u , please avoid this area. and for those who doesnt, den it's OK... u have not step foot into this place....

firstly, i still cant stand this ppl there, and in order not to be taken advantage of, i have to scoop down to their level... it wasn't like this when i was in Pasir ris, people there were so much more well-mannered. one good example would be the train, nvr fails to piss me off. from waiting to get into the train, till getting into the train. it was even such a hassle to top up ur card on weekends, and to top things off, even getting through the gantry was so much of trouble.

secondly, there's obviously something wrong with their bus services, they cant wait for ppl, they speed at the risk of our lives, jamming brakes like no body's business. common, what if a pregnant lady is on the bus, and with drivers driving so recklessly, everyone is on the losing end, esp so for the mothers. how i wish they can be a little more thoughtful. they even expect us ladies to be running after buses in heels and dresses, the guts of them to even close the door as my brother was trying to board, and bloody hell reluctantly open the god dammed door. i was so pissed, i nearly wrote in to complaint, but my dad said to let it pass, besides this problem will no longer exist by the end of this month.

Thirdly, the last and final reason for my displeasure, the way the run the sch, esp so for my younger brother's sch, god knows what they say to them, today my bro came back crying, as his teacher used a harsh tone on him for something tt he cant be blamed for. tsk, the guts of them. and my bro dun wish my parents to tell the teacher tt he cried because of this matter, afraid tt the teacher might 'say' him in front of the class, saying 'who do you think you are' just by crying? tsk. tell me, would he at his age think of such a thing. it has to be something that triggered this. so honestly, what are the teachers teaching, imparting on the students. and the security of the students. what measures have they taken. why are they treating this matter so lightly.

TSK.... this place is bloody screwed and i cant wait to move away, tt would be in due time, for sure. i cant live in this place... I'll get my bags packing and out of here latest in 5years. because HDB doesn't allow us to sell to anyone except back to them, so all the money we pooled in to do our renovation will be lost. so yea, 5 years is reasonable....

*AWAITS THE DEPARTURE OF BLOODY #### ###*

Opening Speech. LOL

2009-02-08T18:44:00.002+08:00

hello, i actually wanted to do up the blog... budden i dun see why i should. cux it just to allow ppl to know more abt my happening esp for my friends who hardly get to see me =)

but sorry ppl, nothing too private here...

anyways, welcome to the the opening of my public blog =D

well, in place of a tagboard, if u wish to leave msges behind, just drop them at the comment box ok =)

and keep any unwanted comments to urself, =)

Welcome

2009-01-27T00:36:00.001+08:00

to all my friends who wishes to keep in contact with me, this is once again done up for the love of our friendship ^^

it has been quite a year, and say.....

WELCOME TO 2009.

HAPPY CHINESE LUNAR NEW YEAR =D